My new year...

Thoughts from January 1, 2007

Category: Blogging

2006 flew by so fast... there were so many changes in my life, too many goodbyes and a lot of hard lessons.

This year I learned that no matter how much you love someone it sometimes isn't enough... I learned once again who my real friends are, made some new ones and ended relationships with others that were drowning the real me. Finally said no to my brother, and realized just how little it all meant.

I hate New Years Eve... every year it's the same old meaning... a new year is beginning, a time when most are thinking of their resolutions and jumping with excitement of all the surprises to come, while I am thinking... okay, what next.

What emanate (if that is a word... we all know I like to make them up) event will occur this year that will forever change who I am? Who will I have to say goodbye too, who will stand by me through it all, will I finally get where I want to be... do I even know where that is anymore.

I generally try to have a new years resolution but this year as the clock wound down in the last few seconds I realized I hadn't even thought about it. And amidst the champaign flowing, friends laughing, and the chanting from the tv... 5... 4.... 3... I thought about how hard I had been laughing in the past few hours just from being goofy, silly and maybe a little tipsy, it occurred to me at that moment that that was precisely what I wanted my 2007 to be filled with... laughter.

So my new years resolution is to laugh more and cry less, and maybe the rest will just fall into place... ;o)